January 2012
42 posts
Just when I think we’re getting closer and you’re trying harder to talk to me and stay involved in conversation you prove me wrong. I’m honestly so done with this. Try not to act to sketchy when you go out….. I don’t even know why I put up with this shit. If this was last year, and my ex-boyfriend I would have killed him, why does this seem so different then. Three...
This is such fucking bullshit, I might as well be single. I’m done with this.
gravitywonteverholdmedown asked: I'm so sorry you have to go through all that. I agree, faking a smile everyday is pretty much the worst thing ever. If I knew you, I would give you a hug! But since I don't, I just hope things get better for you.
I wish people would stop joking about me always being sad. I’m tired of people making fun of the color of my hair. I’m tired of getting bad grades in chemistry. I’m sick of my boyfriend treating me like a friend when we’re texting but expects me to be the perfect girlfriend when it’s convenient for him. I’m tired of everyone talking shit about everyone....
This weekend was so fucking weird and awesome, it went way to fast. I spent all night friday and all day today with my boyfriend, and now I’m really fucking happy. This week is going to go so slow. fuck
I never realized how I can’t really trust anybody lately. Somehow everything gets passed around to someone. All I really need is my mom and my boyfriend, because I know I can tell them anything and they won’t go running to someone else to tell anyone what I just said. Whatever I don’t even care, I guess my journal will be pulled out a lot the next few weeks.
December 2011
119 posts
It’s scary how much better I feel after I cut. It just really sucks I broke a 4 month streak of not hurting myself.
Cleaning out my desk draw and finding all these notes and little things from you I forgot about. This one list of things we made together to do last summer.. most of which we never got to do.. I feel like I’m going to vomit. I haven’t cried this hard in awhile. I remember being in a video chat and talking about it, skinny dipping, hanging out in just undies, write love letters, watch...
